Sometimes all the love I ever felt, all the happiness I ever lived, all the wonderful things I’ve ever seen and all the amazing people I ever met, ALL come back to me unannounced, unexpected, uninvited and I feel life bursting inside me, and I know I need to STOP, I need to run and find a patch of grass and lay in it, lay there, forget the world and BREATH, and LIVE!!!! I want to melt, and let the world kiss me, and let the moment get to the most raw and tender spot in my heart until I cannot help but surrender, until I cannot help but open and love! And flow with it!
There is no desperation in my surrender, there is no giving up, there is no apathy, or laissez-faire, there is only inspiration and hope and there are only open doors, only countless possibilities instead of the only one I grew attached to! There is only freedom, freedom of letting go of all that I “need” to control!
If it means to give up something, it means giving up the fight, giving up the judgement, and giving up the attachment to the results, giving up on trying to fix the Universe, essentially means giving up on fear! Knowing that it will all be OK!!!
In a world where utility and reason is what knowledge is all it sees, what I am trying to write about here seems so immensely complicated and hard to explain, I don’t even perceive it in my mind, don’t understand it exactly with my intelligence, I just feel it!
And it is my trust that helps me get it, my trust that the world loves us when we choose to love the world! My trust that I can have everything I want if it’s right for me, my trust that life is a wonderful, miraculous gift, my trust that I can lose the ‘I’ and the ‘mine’ and still find myself!
Do you trust that the Universe is providing you with what you need, or do you believe that life is a tough battle with many forces fighting against you?